mommyhood practice

So my babysitting stay has begun. So far I have had the following normal parenting experiences:

• packed a lunch
• wrote a teacher a note
• gotten a child on and off a school bus
• gotten only 3 hours of sleep in a night
• fixed a few kid approved meals
• been a chauffeur
• given baths
• loved on a sweet little man
  

And I have had the following Autism parenting experiences.

• gotten no note back from shoddy special ed program
• been hit, scratched and screamed at for various transgressions, such as turning onto wrong streets, withholding coveted sodas, and messing up the schedule.
• taken a child to therapy
• been stared at in public by people who have no idea
• loved on a sweet little man

Even after the sleepless nights and endless temper tantrums, I still really want to be a mommy!
However, my body , of coarse, has different plans. But I am on the search for a new Dr. to help me take control. Because I have bled for 22 out of the past 24 days, and there is no sign of anything changing soon. This might even be worse than waiting for AF, because now, I don't even know what I'm waiting for. There has to be a happy medium, right?