I'm Frustrated!

So the spotting has continued. Not heavy enough to call a Dr (not that I have one to call) but it still worries me. No signs of upcoming O. I am hoping that this is not another 90+day cycle. That would be awful, especially since we want to actively try this cycle!!!! Meanwhile, Anna's belly is growing, reminding me of exactly what I don't have. I love her, but it's getting hard. I want to be a mommy sooooooooooooooo badly. Impossibly badly. And yet. The spotting continues with no sign of O. I hate this. It's sucking the happiness out of joyful situations and I just hate it.