Things are starting to look up!

Fertility Friend is saying that I ovulated. Perhaps I am less broken than I thought? I was totally expecting to do the soy, and the met, and for absolutely nothing to happen. So I took the soy, all my viatamins, and met, excercised, and even ate more vegetables, even *gasp* stopped drinking sodas, but I didn't excpect anything to happen. Sadly, weight wise, like nothing has happened, I've maybe lost a measley two lbs, however, it looks like I ovulated!!!! Check it out people!
My Ovulation Chart

In other news, today is Halloween. Poor Hubby has to work, but my mom and dad are bringing my little sister over to go trick-r-treating, and I'm dressing up my puppies. Buddy the dashund is going as a hotdog. :-) Until then though, I should really clean my house and do some HW!

Yuck!

I don't think anyone but me reads this, but TMI alert.
The metformin is most definatley giving me side effects......my stomach hasn't been this sick since daily eating at Cathcart at CCC freshman year. But, I've lost 1/2 lb already.....and if that continues, I'm thinking this might just be worth it. Of coarse I am supposed to be eating really healthy, and excercising too, and doing that even without the medicine should give me some results. I made a semis healthy dinner last night- chicken sausage, organic mac n cheese, and asparagus, and went for a quick bike ride with DJ.
Agenda for the day: be lazy, go to work, go walking with a friend, and maybe go visit my family......and make lots of trips to the potty in between all those things- like now, adios.

Here we goooo!

So when I went to the DR yesterdday I had a long list of concerns, at the top of the list- metformin. The DR prescribed 500mg 2x per day. I just took my first pill......I feel nauseated already- but maybe it's just in my head! Meanwhile, I'm seeing babies everywhere. DJ says we wait until March to try. I know I need this vauable time to loose weight and let met do it's thing, but I feel that pull.....that let's make a baby pull.....it's going to be a very long 5 months.

praying for a miracle......

I work with kids with Autism. I love them. I love their parents. I really respect their parents- they do so much!!! However, something I see many parents do, is change their child's treatment, hoping for a miracle cure. Chelation, the GFCF diet, RDI, probiotics, hyperbaric chamber, etc etc. I'm not saying these things work, or don't work. I'm just saying that parents try them, expecting they cure their child over night. That just doesnt happen. But it doesn't stop these parents from trying! I say that if it were me in that situation I wouldn't try any of the crazy, non-research based methods. But honestly, I can't promise that. If it were my child, I think I'd try everything, crazy or not, to help my child.

I'm getting a small dose of this. My PCOS symptoms have been horrible lately. Can you believe I've gained about 85 lbs in the past 4 years?! And that's not the only thing that my body has done because of this. I am miserable, and I really want a baby. At this point I'm searching for a miracle cure, taking all kinds of vitamins and herbs, and going to the DR to ask about metformin tomorrow. I'm praying it's my miracle pill. That somehow my body will just say "Oh yeah, this is what I'm supposed to do!"

I just want to get better, and be a mommy, and for my boys to all get better too. I love them so much. I think if given the choice- them getting better or me being a mommy.......I'd pick them. Which is crazy, because I want to be a mommy more than anything......or maybe I don't. I might not be a mommy, but I love those boys as if they were my own.

Give me a break, give me a break.......

I'm on my break from work. I currently have about ten minutes before I have to head back. Not sure why I chose to come home rather than stay at the office and do schoolwork. I ended up coming home for a grand total of an hour, making myself a salad, and prepping stuff for dinner- getting out hamburger meat for chili and cutting green tomatoes and soaking them in buttermilk/hotsauce mixture for frying later. I really should've stayed at the office this morning!

Good morning session, although I love working with each of the kids, I'll admit I get a special rush when working on something academic with the higher functioning kiddos- guess it's my education background......but then again i get a special rush when properly extinguishing problem behaviors, and also whenever the lower functioning kiddos finally gets something. I'm lucky. I love my job. I don't love the money issues I'm having with it right now.......but I do love my job. Two afternoon sessions, and I really better hop to getting ready for them! Later alligators.

new blog continued.....

I decided to make dinner. I ended up making up a recipe for cheesy ham and potato soup. It took me two hours, but was beyond amazingly delicious. Now for a bubble bath and bed time. :-)

A new blog.........

I've had my fair share of blogs, all of which seem to have lost my interest and now sit, out in cyberspace, unloved and unposted upon. Why start a new blog you ask? (Or maybe you didn't) Why write for all the world (or absolutely no one) to read?
The answer is short, and somewhat embarrassing - to procrastinate, and at the same time to stop procrastinating. I need an outlet both to avoid what I should be doing, and to identify what it is I should be doing, decide why I am not doing it, write about what I'd rather do, and then, in a moment of both defeat and triumph- get off the computer and do it!
So why start a new blog to do this? Why not just go back to one of my old blogs? To be truthful, those blogs were written at a time different from now. I have changed, and the things I once wrote about have lost their luster. Those chapters in my life have closed. I'd like to move on and explore where my life is going, rather than where it has been. Here I sit rambling to no one in particular, and thinking very exciting thoughts about where this next year might take me, but I have a new blog to fill with those hopes and dreams, on a day other than today.
There are many things that I should be doing instead of creating a blog- cooking dinner for my snoring hubby, mopping my floors, looking up grammar rules for work, or even doing some schoolwork. None of these things appeal to me much at the moment- all the more reason to get off my but and do them............So farewell for now my new baby blog. (babies, now there' a future post for sure)